If I could just know [blank] it would make my walk with God so much easier.
Have you ever been in a situation where you feel like you are walking through a heavy fog and have no idea where to turn. You can barely see your feet in front of you as they feel the ground for your next step and there is no sight of the fog dissipating soon.
Like God, if you would just tell me what school I should go to or who I should be friends with, it would really help me to trust you more. I would have more time to spend with you than worrying and trying to figure this out.
When we allow the enemy to convince us of the knowledge that we need, that we think God is withholding from us:
It takes our eyes off of God and onto ourselves
Distorts what God has intended for us
There are times in my life where I feel like God is with holding from me and I remain full of questions and uncertainty.
In many respects I am very much like Eve, who also lacked some trust that God really knew what He was doing. However, without Eve knowing it, she created a window of opportunity for the enemy to plant lies that were distorted as the truth. As a result Eve’s relationship with God was broken and she was ashamed. What God had originally intended – a flourishing intimate relationship with Him – became distorted when Eve believed God was withholding something from her. However, once she grasped all the knowledge she thought there was to obtain, her eyes fell from the gaze of God and onto her own naked body. Shame seemed to scream at her as she tried to run and hide from God. Fear, guilt and shame were her garments now, when God had intended to dress his Eve in freedom, the purest of loves and uncontainable joy.
If we really got what we wanted, would that be enough?
Is God is just some wise being who knows all, who is suppose to give you the answers to your problems?
How do you really view God?
Is He actually good? Does he withhold? Is he mad and disappointed in you?
Do you believe there’s something you must do to get his attention?
These are questions I find myself going back to in times of frustration towards Him when I feel like He isn’t holding up His end of the bargain. And I want to encourage you to do the same as well. Get out a notebook or your phone notes and begin to answer some of those questions honestly. Even if you know what your answers are, there is something freeing about writing it down and putting it into words.
What gets me, is that Eve walked with God. She literally walked with Him and experienced the most intimate relationship with God that He had intended for all of us. Yet she was still susceptible to Satan’s schemes. Satan’s attacks become no less depending on your intimacy with God. There is no safe zone with Satan.
There is the temptation to focus on the things we don’t have or know, so much so that we become disillusioned by it and miss the very things before us.
Such as all the blessings we do have. The presence of our God who is closer than the air we breathe and desires to know you and be known by you.
While the ground below you may seem sketchy and you are ready to give in and give up, don’t harden your heart or refuse to let the truth of who God is touch you. Because if we do, “there will be confusion. Just like the disciples seeing Jesus walking toward them and thinking He was a ghost. What did they do in the midst of this confusion? They cried out in fear instead of calling out to their Lord in faith. They were terrified. Why? …[Because] they missed Jesus…so they set in motion what needed to remain still,” (Uninvited by Lysa TerKeurst pg. 165-166).
Friend, you are not alone in your mess, in your confusion. There is another in the trenches with you. Who is not disappointed in you. And has so much more for you. Will you trust in your own strength and ability or lean into the One greater and above it all?
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths.” Proverbs 3:5&6
walking this road with you,
~ Daysha
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